Baby's Room

I have had so much fun putting together a baby girl's room. I wasn't planning on making everything, but am now glad I did. I love how it all turned out. A special thanks to Ben's aunt for drawing the tree on the wall...painting itself took me forever! Now we just need a name...

Cameron's Baseball Game

Every year on Cameron's Angel Day we go to a baseball game with all of our family. It is a fun tradition and this year the kids had a blast. It was a beautiful night and when the full moon came out Ben and I looked at each other a little teary-eyed. Cameron would always point out the moon and one of his favorite sayings was "high to the moon". He would throw balls (or anything) high to the moon. He loved to swing high to the moon. So whenever I see a full moon I feel like Cameron is peeking down on us. I know he is still a part of our family and he loves all of us. We sure love him!

We Miss You Buddy!

I can't believe it's been five years since Cameron passed away. I try not to get too caught up in what it would be like if he were here, but as Josh gets older and is starting school and sports I recognize how different our life would be. I miss him everyday. We love you Cameron!

Summer Catch Up

Graduation Trip with MBA friends
How many MBA graduates does it take to read a map?


Travis and Joelle get married

There is an explanation of why Weston has a mullet. I took him to get his haircut. It was such a horrible experience. He was screaming bloody murder and crying, the lady was awful, and I was holding his head. We left before the haircut was complete and I said I would not do that again. So a few months later he had long locks. It actually looked really cute long when aunt Jenny trimmed it. But I didn't plan very well and he needed a trim that didn't happen before the wedding...hence the mullet. You never think it looks that bad until you see pictures.

Cousin Rylan turns one.The kiddos eating cake.



Josh Swim Lessons
Josh took swim lessons the very beginning of the summer. He was the youngest in his class, but did great. I was so happy to watch him making progress and he has only continued progressing this summer. He swims in the deep by himself and dives for sticks on the bottom of the pool. He is our little fish. He would swim all day every day if mom could only keep up.

Lake Powell





July 4thOver the fourth of July we had a Capell family reunion. Which I seem to have no pictures of...It was fun to see Ben's aunts and uncles and to spend time together. We went up to Sundance and Cascade Springs. We even saw a moose. We did fireworks together. The cousins always loving being together!

Park City for the 24th of July
The boys loved riding the Gondola up the mountain. On our hike we found a huge mountain of snow! Josh thought it was pretty cool to play on the snow in July.




Gymnastics
Josh and Weston took Gymnastics and they loved it. It was fun to see Weston have something that was his own. The first class he was so shy by himself without Josh, but by the next class he was doing everything. He is such a coordinated boy. He can hop on one foot and do a mock cartwheel. His favorite part was the tramp track and jumping in the pit.

Ben's Graduation

Ben's Graduation turned out to be such a nice day. The boys did great thanks to Grandma Rainey, Papa Lance, Sydney and the IPad. It was sunny and nice for pictures. We loved visiting with great friends we made over the last two years. Ben looked so handsome and I am so proud of him and his hard work. I feel like we hesitated about coming back to BYU, but felt so guided in doing so. It is nice to now feel that it all worked out how it was supposed to. We are excited for this next chapter of our lives.

So far behind...

So today I was looking at the boys baby books with them, and realized I have been such a horrible blogger/journal keeper lately. I am going to forget all the funny and cute things they are saying and doing. So I am going to hopefully get our blog caught up in the next couple of weeks. But for now the funny stuff...

The boys were playing happily upstairs and I decided to jump in the shower. I locked the bathroom door. (this is a new thing since they are getting older and I would just like a few minutes to myself :)) Well within a minute they all of a sudden both desperately needed me and were banging on the door. Weston said, "you locked the door, why? Unlock the door, Mom."
My tone was exasperated when I replied, "Boys just give me five minutes!"
Josh replied with concern, "I don't have five minutes." I couldn't help but laugh at his very literal interpretation.

We were getting in the car to go to Seven Peaks (which is exhausting for me at this point). I bribed the boys into their carseats with a chocolate raisin. I only had 2 so I gave one to both Wes and Josh. Weston was furious and threw the raisin at my head demanding two for both hands. He was screaming and throwing a huge tantrum and we weren't even down the road yet. I lost my patience pulled the car over and yelled at Weston, which did not help. A few minutes later I apologized to him for losing my temper and told him I shouldn't yell like that.
Josh said, "Mom you need to read that book again that tells you how to be a good mom and not yell at your kids." Apparently he has seen me reading parenting books and taken that from my explanation of what the book is about.

From the mouth of babes...

Last night we were driving home from Grandma's house and out of the blue Josh started this conversation.

"I don't want to be grown up when I go to heaven. I want to be able to play with Cameron when I am a kid not when I am grown up."

Ben and I just looked at each other. Then I told Josh that I didn't know the details of heaven and how it would all work out, but that I knew we would be happy and not wish for anything. I don't think my vague answer was very satisfying.

"I want to play with Cameron when I am a kid. Can we bless that I will beable to play with Cameron when I am a little boy. Dad you say the prayer and bless that tonight ok?"

A very heart wrenching conversation. And interesting that Josh has similar questions that I have. I believe that I will have the opportunity to raise Cameron again. That he will be resurrected and his little 21 month old body will be perfect and I will have the opportunity to be his mom again. But I have wondered too how that will be when my other children aren't children anymore....the sibling relationship won't be the same. My understanding is very limited now, and I have faith that all will be right. I know that I will feel blessed beyond measure to have been Cameron's mom. It is sweet to see Josh mulling it all over in his head too. I feel like Cameron has given our family a unique eternal perspective, which I am so thankful for.