From the mouth of babes...

Last night we were driving home from Grandma's house and out of the blue Josh started this conversation.

"I don't want to be grown up when I go to heaven. I want to be able to play with Cameron when I am a kid not when I am grown up."

Ben and I just looked at each other. Then I told Josh that I didn't know the details of heaven and how it would all work out, but that I knew we would be happy and not wish for anything. I don't think my vague answer was very satisfying.

"I want to play with Cameron when I am a kid. Can we bless that I will beable to play with Cameron when I am a little boy. Dad you say the prayer and bless that tonight ok?"

A very heart wrenching conversation. And interesting that Josh has similar questions that I have. I believe that I will have the opportunity to raise Cameron again. That he will be resurrected and his little 21 month old body will be perfect and I will have the opportunity to be his mom again. But I have wondered too how that will be when my other children aren't children anymore....the sibling relationship won't be the same. My understanding is very limited now, and I have faith that all will be right. I know that I will feel blessed beyond measure to have been Cameron's mom. It is sweet to see Josh mulling it all over in his head too. I feel like Cameron has given our family a unique eternal perspective, which I am so thankful for.