Merry Christmas

I can't believe Christmas has already come and gone. We had our hard moments, but it sure was fun to watch it all through Josh's eyes. He sure took it all in. I think he is making the same serious face in all the pictures...just so much to absorb.

Josh learning to Stand...and Walk??

He actually took a couple steps here, until he nose dived into me.

Melancholy Night

Ben is out of town and I was at my Mom's house. I left to get Josh home for bed, and he fell asleep in the car. It was snowing. The beautiful kind--slow and silent and soon everything was coated with a powdery dust. I put in a new CD and this song came on (Sarah McLaughlin's Wintersong). I haven't listened to it since last Christmas, and if you stay on this page long enough to hear the whole song you will understand why it made me sad. I also happened to be driving past the cemetary.

I have about a thousand pictures of Cameron, but always wishing I had more. I can see so perfectly him raising his arms to the sky and spinning in the snow. Wish I had a picture. Ok, so maybe just wishing I had him...

I am trying to enjoy Christmas. I know I should. Truly Christmas is about Christ and the hope and peace He brought into this world. I know all this, but I have just been having a hard time feeling very spiritual admist all the chaos and commercialism. I just miss my little guy so painfully.

Sorry for the sad post, probably should have used my journal...

Being Silly

I don't really have an organized or excting post, but I wanted to put up some new pictures. Blogging seems to have become art, and I am just not very artistic. But Josh is cute so it is still fun to see pictures of him.

Yep, he is standing by himself holding onto the basketball hoop.

I am not sure why sometimes the most fun and entertaining toys aren't toys at all, but I sure do love the laundry basket. It also makes a great walker. Just can't resist those smiley eyes.

Not a good picture of Josh but I LOVE this one of Ben, doesn't he just look like a kid! Which is fitting since this is his birthday party, and he is now officially old....Ok not really but this was a big birthday #30!!

See you later!