Blessings

Cameron a few days old
Cameron had such a scary entrance into this world, expecially compared with the births of my other boys. Sometimes I wonder if his time was even supposed to be shorter and he so badly wanted to use that little body he was blessed with more time. I don't know. But I think his scary birth in some ways prepared us. It made me recognize how fragile life is and how little control we have. It also made me think about my mom and my older sister Jessica. My mom lost her first child when she was only a day old. It wan't something we talked about growing up. But I knew about Jessica. I recognized how strong my mom was and had a tiny glimpse of how difficult that must have been. Life is strange!



This picture is the day we blessed Cameron...and Ben looks so young! We had just returned from a 10 day cruise with my whole family. Yes, we were naive parents and took our 7 week old on a 10 day cruise to the Panama Canal. There were a few moments on the cruise I realized it was kind of crazy and I thought, "what are we doing?" But for the most part it was really fun. Cameron did great and slept better on the boat then he had at home. Then we stayed in Utah for a week or so to introduce Cameron to Ben's family and to bless him.

The morning of his blessing, Cameron was fussy and sick. He had his first cold. We were worried about him because he was so upset. We ended up rushing him to the dr. office Sunday morning and then were late to church. He was fine, just a cold. I remember I bought this little outfit for his blessing and of course since he was 2 months old I had to buy 3-6 month size! Cameron was such a big guy.

Ben gave a beautiful blessing (which we didn't record!). He was extremely emotional even for awhile afterwards. I think even in Cameron's life we felt how strong his spirit was. He would stare right through you with those beautiful blue eyes. I felt on more than one occasion that he knew me and that our spirits were communicating. I still feel that with him now. I know that he holds a special place in our family. I know that he is watching out for us and we will get opportunities to feel him near.