Buddies

I love when I find my boys playing together...so cute!

Catching Up...Halloween Fun

Josh and I made some scary zombie treats. Josh is making a scary face.

It was pretty difficult to get a good picture of both of my dragons.

Kids Say...

The other night Ben and Josh were playing. Josh had had enough tickling and told Ben to stop right now. Then he said, "Remember Dad you need to be nice to me cause Santa is watching."

Getting Married....

Somehow Josh is starting to put together love and marriage. It is really funny the stuff he comes up with. If he sees somebody in a white dress he askes if they are getting married. It is scary how much he understands, we watched Hercules the other night (not one I would recommend) and Josh was asking if Hercules and Meg were getting married. Whenever Ben and I hug or kiss in front of him he asks if we are getting married. I have told him we are already married, and we got married in the temple. Then today when I was feeding the boys lunch he says to me,

"Mom I have a good idea. I think you are getting married again tomorrow. You are getting married to Daddy at the temple. I am going to hang out with Wes. I will feed him blueberries and cookies. He will love that. We will hang out while you and Daddy go to the temple and get married."

It was pretty funny. So he doesn't completely understand....but we probably should go to the temple, nothing like a little advice from your 2 year old.

My Sweet Josh

I am so far behind posting pictures, but they will come soon. I wanted to post about my cute 2 year old for those days when I forget how sweet he can be.
The last couple of nights Ben has been at school late so I have made dinner for just me and the boys. When Ben's not home our dinner tends to be fast and substandard. Josh started eating his dinner, making "MMMMhhh" comments with each bite.

Then he says, "This is so good. Thanks Mom for making me yummy dinner."
Me: "You're welcome Josh."
Josh: "That was soooo nice of you. I think I am going to give you a big hug for being so nice."

He proceeds to give me a big hug. I was trying not to laugh at how cute he was. The next night we had a very similar conversation. I don't know where he comes up with this stuff, but he really is a sweetheart.

Time

Cameron would be five today. Can that really be true. I had to backtrack to each of his birthdays and count...is that really right, and it is. I cannot believe it has been more than 3 years since I've pressed my forehead to his and heard his little voice. I miss him just as much as I did 3 years ago. The missing is just as strong the hurt has subsided some. Time is such a strange measurement. I remember reading somewhere how time feels foreign to us because it is only a mortal measurement not an eternal one. I think about this when I think how long it's been since I've had my Cameron and how much longer till I see him again. I also think of this when I worry about him missing us. But today I will try to be glad for the time I had with Cameron, for the memories we made together and knowing that one day we will ALL be together without time in the way.

Happy Birthday Cameron

We miss you so...

And as Josh says, we hope you enjoy your balloons in heaven above the clouds and up by the moon.